me/therapy
by encima · 15 things on NewTwos
- Behaviours I would like to change:
- Long term thinking
- Currently, I find it hard to visualise (or care) about future things and rely often on luck or factors outside of my control
- Childish behaviours
- Related to the above, I have the childish view of "why reward myself when I do a a good thing when I can just have the good thing?". I would like to be able to understand and appreciate the benefit
- Less anxiety (time mostly)
- Sweating is a problem for me and it is partially related to anxiety around almost everything (primarily time)
- Care about the future = care about me?
- I do not respect myself so I also do not do things FOR me, rather in spite of me
- I realise I do not have goals in life because I feel like I am "done" and anything else I do is a bonus. A lot of my actions are borne out of guilt or shame and not because I think I "deserve" a thing. Someone once said that it is like I am "trying to take up as little space in the world" and I feel like that is true.
- Sustained motivation / processes
- People commonly get excited at the start of a project and then watch it fade out. I would like to work around that, or factor that into the work I do
- Emotional awareness
- I have relied alot on my internal self to handle dealing with emotions but that often means I am only aware of an emotional state because of a physical response;
- I know it is unlikely that I will be able to access emotions like a neurotypical person but I would like to be able to understand if, for example, I am overwhelmed