I know she’ll forget to call me again tonight and I’ll cry. I didn’t cry last night, but I didn’t sleep good. I used to not sleep. Always worried that something bad happened to her. Something horrible, something that was my fault. Because I didn’t go with her, because I didn’t study hard enough, couldn’t make the grades. I’m just not smart enough, wasn’t born with her kind of brain. I got hands though. You know it’s not even one of those colleges people die to get into. If you had to rank the colleges around here their would be a big fight over who was first, and after they got that straighten out no one would care what college was after number two.