Notes &
Could you kiss me with your eyes open? So I could know you weren’t seeing him on the back of your eyelids. He should be dead to you. He’s not a friend, He would say different and many would agree. We both know he’s just someone to keep around until he loves you. He never will and it hurts every moment he doesn’t. You’ll keep the pain. To keep the day dreams of the future you write him into. How much longer can you keep him in your life? How much longer until he finds a girl you hate and marries her? How many more men will you hurt? Keeping them around hoping he’ll fight you away from them? With small gestures and a kiss. His hands in your perfect hair at the perfect moment with music from no where.
I can do this any more. I loved you like you could never love him. I loved you like pen to paper, running over the old wooden bridge while the sun rises. You love him like all the parts you never auditioned for or the traveling you never did. Keep waiting to kiss him hard in front of the girls he’s dated for some reaction. They wont care. They’ve moved on.